Money is increasingly becoming a concern for me - both for the future and for the present. I'm by no means in debt (I pay anything on the credit card off immediately, in fact) and with the system I am now FIRMLY adhering to going along smoothly, my savings is slowly increasing and is back on its way to where it was before last October.
I've cut a lot of small but superfluous expenses without completely cutting myself off from fun. Instead of buying 4 copies of Buffy Season 8 (about 13 bucks/month) so I could get the special cover, I decided that the special covers are really uglier than the normal covers and that I simply didn't care. I only need one and if my friends like the comic, they can buy it. So there's an extra 10 dollars or so. I've also made it a point to make sure that when the groceries are bought there is enough food for me, because going out to lunch is a) expensive and b) not healthy. I make exception for my smoothies, but that's cash and is different.
I just canceled my Tabula Rasa payment after going "WHA?!" because I had less money in my account than I thought I would. 40 dollars every 3 months? Too much, sorry. I just can't afford it.
So, what is all this money that I'm saving in my checking account for?
Well, as of December I had 4 trips for this year planned. Looking at what I have and what I can make before summer, I know I will only be able to take one. It's really disappointing to me to admit that. I had made loose plans for two of these things: First, was the possibility of Portus in Texas. It's close and I think that I can realistically make it in maybe a year or two, but I'm honestly not that close to a lot of Gryffindors anymore and I worry about that. I also made loose plans with Bekkah to get out to New York for my 21st. That's an obvious bummer but I am hoping to maybe consolidate this trip and the D*C trip in the next paragraph into one awesome bash sometime next year or so.
There were two slightly more solid plans: a few real life friends and I had discussed a trip up the west coast with our bikes on the AmTrak. Mostly it was talked about with Whitney, but I know I mentioned it to a few other close friends who really liked the idea. I'm planning this out right now and I think it's the most realistic one. I also was looking into going to Dragon*Con in August to meet Maura but the cost to go across the country again, so soon after the trip of last October, pay for some of a hotel, for meals, to buy the little shit that I know I'll want to buy... I just don't think I'll have the money. It's really frustrating but I had to make a decision. I really, really wanted to dress up and make Maura laugh. This is probably the most disappointing thing and guilt-inducing thing, because I'd also started planning this trip and started caring about it.
Also, I spilled hot chocolate all over myself the other week. That was fun. I thought the little that had gotten on my tablet hadn't effected it because it worked fine that day. The next day? I would use the pen and the mouse on screen would flicker everywhere, clicking when I hadn't clicked, etc. So I have to buy a new one if I would like to work comfortably in Photoshop and with the dicking around drawings that I do.
I've been planning to save up for Photoshop for the Mac but I'll have to figure out a) how much total the coast trip will cost and how much I want to put on the credit card.
Tomorrow after school I am dropping off my Holga film to be developed (3 rolls! Eeeee...) and if I get even 1 nice photo, I will be content.
I had a great day at the beach yesterday with my dad. We went down to Dana Point. I was like a beacon of luck - it was great. We found a parking spot immediately thanks to my eyes and we had a really great lunch. It was nice to spend time with him. I feel like I talked a lot, but we all had a kind of awkward dinner on Saturday so I expected conversation to need coaxing. I found gifts for Reya to go along with the card I have, which I owe her from Valentine's and Ky, whom I promised a little something, and for my exchange lion! Hoorah! I'm planning on packing this up maybe Thursday after school or so.
Busy times. I'm trying to just roll with it and not worry or feel guilty or tired.